Undeserving

By: Wendy Raimi & Jacqi McKinney

Disclaimer: Mine, don't steal.

I don't deserve you
But here you are
holding me tight
kissing me light
I don't deserve you
A big bundle of love
all for my own
not gonna share
I don't deserve you

They said it would be impossible
For a girl like me
depressed schizotypal
ugly and deprived
stupid and mortifying
horrifying and denied
to ever be loved
I wasn't to be cared for
I was broken
But here you are
loving me tonight

What did I do?
are my stars aligned?
Did I pray just right?
How could you fall from the sky
and into my lap.
You make me cry a thousand tears
a thousand I've cried before
but suddenly they're different
I haven't cried them in years

Tears of happiness
tears of joy
the kind that they get
at weddings for boys

Suddenly I'm no longer a toy
No longer abused
No longer just used
I want to show them all
show them what I've got
The cynics
the sardonics
the schizophrenics
and the depressed
Show them that suddenly I've found my love
the one who I adore
No longer are Strange things happening to me.
I feel just right
and still I know
I don't deserve you.